I still envy the girl. She still manages to post regularly. Be calm my heart. It's got to do with no pujas in the temple. But her latest post on Anu's marriage did warm my heart. Felt kind of bad that I missed Anu's wedding. Dude! You were not invited! So relax!
So lets' talk about my favorite topic -- ME!
Have been edgy of late. Not told this to many though. So finding it difficult to suppress it in my gut.
This is not me!
I do not remember the last time I was so unsure about life. Or rather my professional life.
Too many options. Or too few. What seemed like the crossroads has morphed into a roadblock. And being the selfish human that I am, have started calling out to the Gods.
They did hear my all this while. But maybe too are tired of my selfish prayers and me.
This mad race to meet EMI deadlines is screwing it up for everyone. Me for sure.
And the best part being that all these situations have been created by, yours truly. So why am I bickering? Can't I be half the man I claim to be and face it.
Honestly, the answer is a big vehement NO! I like life easy. As easy as I've had it till here. Don’t like to be pushed into a corner. I like to be in control. Probably this explains the blog. No talking back. No arguing. Just a passive receptor. Wowie!
I do not like taking the tough calls. Especially if it involves and affects me. Would rather lie low and let it pass. Guess all the passing has been done and the ball's landed back at my feet.
I can either give it that crafty kick or let is roll over the sidelines.
Passing is no longer an option.
What do I do?
Guess I wont be getting any answers from here.
I've designed it that way, right? Passive receptor.
For once blog… talk to me…
